My brain keeps giving me these random anxiety's when I try and sleep
Like really stupid little things that my brian thinks are really huge probems and stops me from sleeping untill i get up in the morning and think “why the fuck was that so important”
Last nights highlight was “oh fuck, the DMX nodes at work arn’t working properly”. They are nearly always random work problems, ironically i’m probably under performing at work because i’m getting no sleep
Incase your worryed the nodes are now fine, thanks for asking ;P
and it feels llike everything just clicked. Like sudenty im like “fuck of couse thats what that is” its something ive had since i was 14 but it got really bad recently. I constantly had this thing in my head going “he dosn’t like you” and it was driing me had, on tod of the usual stuff. And it was making me sick
I know this is vague, im still thinking abot stuff. But now i need to make an opointment wit a doctor n stuff but i feel like they’ll laugh at me
They say I have a sweet ass, nice tits, a real pretty dress. They say I’m their future wife, or I’d look good with their dick in my mouth. They try (and probably succeed at times) to take pictures down my shirt. They ask if they can get my number, they ask where I live, why I’m not smiling, why my boyfriend lets me walk around by myself. Then they ask why I’m such a bitch, if my pussy is made of ice. They say that they never do this, as though I’ve somehow driven them to inappropriate behavior and deserve it. They say they’re just having fun, trying to pay me a compliment. Pretty frequently they get mean, slipping into a loud tourettes-like chant of bitch-whore-cunt-slut.
Before you try to tell me that it’s because I take my clothes off for a living, let me tell you that this started way before I was 18. Let me tell you that every single woman I know has at least one truly terrifying story of street harassment and a whole bunch of other stories that are merely insulting or annoying. Let me remind you that in a room of pornography fans, who have actually seen me with a dick in my mouth and who can buy a replica of my vagina in a can or box, I am treated with far more respect than I am walking down the street.
If Kristen Stewart can lose her job, risk losing her entire career, fanbase, and respect over cheating on her boyfriend, the fact that Chris Brown is still acknowledged and celebrated is a fucking crime. If you want a prime example of women’s inequality in the media, there it is.